& yes you are beautiful

taken from my old blog

It's scary to do things, others are afraid to do. For a while I tried to convince myself I could be okay not doing these things. Honestly the idea of getting married, having kids, living in a cottage by the ocean is a beautiful thought, but I know it would never be enough. The reason I think it's so nice, is because it's so EASY. Look around you. If you're like the majority of the world, then everyone around yous life, was easy to come by. Not saying they never had their share of troubles but as a whole, they got what they set out to get. The chances of you falling on your ass are a hell of a lot higher if what you're chasing is farther away.

People like to tell you, "do you know how hard it is to make that a profession?" or "you don't really want to do that". You find your glow fading around these people. You refrain from telling them everything you want, you end up telling them the shitty average version of your plans, because you don't want them to smash your real one. Or maybe you don't tell them any part of it, because this is easier.

Along the way, their constant reminder that your plans are foolish and unrealistic began to stick with you, and over time you find yourself tweaking the plans so they're more attainable, until finally, they become just like everyone else's.

I know you want to go about this in such a way as your heart won't get broken, but hunny, you're slowly breaking your own heart by taking small pieces of light away from you at a time. 

People in the country are used to dark skies and silent air, and there's nothing wrong with that. They just can't see the beauty in the city lights. You are a billboard that refuses to go out at any hour. You are that one star that shines bright against the black night. And because of that, you are beautiful, some just can't see it, because the light blinds them.

But you just keep shining on, and next time someone starts to criticize your life choices, tell them to buy some sunglasses.

<3