Not just the constant shots, making sure you give yourself the shot at the exact same time every day so you don't feel like shit, but who am I kidding, you're probably still going to feel like shit.
It isn't exactly easier for pump users either. I know it seems this way to people without the disease, like " oh well now your life must be so much easier and your diabetes well managed". I remember my doctors telling me how much easier it would make life.
Well I have an omnipod, which is basically like an insulin pump except the mechanics of the pump are in the tester and what is attached to your body is much more similar in size to one of those monitors ( I can't remember the name, but it keeps constant track of your blood sugar levels).
To me personally this has been a huge change in my life, no more cord! Yes, removing that fucking cord has lifted unneeded stress from my life.
I know that there are stupid things to buy to keep the pump in place on your leg, by using one of those stretchy band things, if you opted to wear a skirt or dress, but I remember using these often when I first transitioned to having a pump. I also remember how much it didn't fit and how uncomfortable it was and walking to the bathroom to secretly take it off without my parents knowledge so I could walk and sit without being jabbed in the leg repeatedly. This eventually resulted in me not wearing anything but pants.
So for 3-4 YEARS I was a young female girl who could not wear anything but pants.
I can vividly remember putting on a dress for the first time after getting the omnipod and beginning to cry because of how normal I felt.
Back to my initial point, though the omnipod, (or insulin pumps of any kind) stop you from having to take schedules shots, it's not all sunshine. First off, the blood glucose testing doesn't stop, so you're taking just as many shots there. Additionally the other shots aren't gone forever, if all goes well, you still have to take one every three days. Again that's if nothing goes wrong, and everyone with diabetes knows that's NEVER happening. Some examples of this including, simply running out of insulin, it being a bad site, so no matter how much insulin you're administering, your blood sugar refuses to go down, and last but not least, my personal favorite, it just stops working. If that weren't bad enough it does this horrendous high pitched siren (or scream) that lasts eternally (or until you turn it off) that lets you know it has stopped. This is particularly awesome when it happens during an interview and you then have to stop talking about the job and mention your health issues, that you would have rathered they didn't know about, because if you don't they're going to think you left your phone on and set an alarm loud enough for your neighbors to hear because you can't get up otherwise, and that doesn't look like a good trait to have.
I am sure I am going to be talking about this a lot more but the reason I am talking about it now is because I feel like crap, and there are a lot of days where I feel like crap. Maybe my blood sugar won't go down, maybe it won't go up, or my body is worn out from either constantly having it's blood sugar be a roller coaster of up and down, from 300-30 in a matter of fucking hours to constantly having synthetic shit pumped into it day in and day out.
Reminder.
I think this is important to note, in case you are reading this and don't have type 1 Diabetes, my numbers constantly being this out of control is not due to my lack of effort.
I am not saying I do everything perfect, by no means, but how could I, I'm human.
I'm just making it clear, I don't snack on cookies and candy.
I check my sugar regularly, I am just under a lot of stress, and yes, if you didn't know, that plays a critical role in management.
Everyone likes to play doctor when they find out I have this and I just want to say, to all of those people.
THE ONLY WAY I WOULD HAVE NEAR PERFECT CONTROL,
is to...
1. Eat nothing but Vegetables because that is the only thing with near zero carbohydrates, but watch out don't eat too much because it does have some.
2. Check blood sugar every hour and hope you still have feeling in your finger tips 5 years from now
3. Quit your job and lose your friends so you can spend every additional minute that you're not eating your vegetables and testing your sugar, exercising.
4. Lastly, give up being human. No I mean this in the most literal sense, because humans need carbohydrates to survive and you can't have those, and humans have emotions that can't be turned off, which effect blood sugar levels, so you can't have those.
hahhahaa okay i'm done.
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