...well how about that.

This blog is going to be a bit of a ramble, but I was just watching a Youtube video and this girl, was saying that people think the world is what it is because of what they see, smell, taste, ect. But that in fact the senses are a lie, they are all a delusion to reality. I have to say I believe 100%. If it were possible to believe in something more than 100% this would be one of those things. People can spend their whole life thinking they will never be anything to anyone, that they will never amount to anything because no one believes they can but the truth is the only person who needs to believe it is yourself. Scratch that. You don't need to believe it you need to KNOW it. Know that you can do anything, and I mean really know it, not tell yourself you do, but truly reach the point where you know for a fact, that you can do anything and suddenly you'll be able to do just that. Everyone is capable of doing everything and everything they have ever wanted to do everything they were too afraid to try because they knew they would fail. The only thing holding everyone back is the IDEA. The idea that things are the way they are, but the weird, scary, amazing thing is things are never completely "the way they are". 

I honestly am having a hard time dealing with this myself because I can't concentrate on anything, things always seem to be so much simpler to everyone else but me, and maybe that's the truth. I'm not here to say that you don't or do have it worse than someone else. YOU know better than I or anyone for that matter, whether or not that's the truth. What I'm saying is, whether you have to work less or more than the next person to get what it is you need, you can do it all you have to do is make up your mind to do so. 

I feel so overwhelmed so much of the time, if I'm not working I'm nannying, if I'm not nannying I'm at the doctor, or setting up appointments for the doctor, or visiting family or seeing friends or staring into the abyss that is my room wondering when I will gather up enough courage to clean it. I am trying to see that I can do anything if I just try. I have self diagnosed myself with ADHD haha (not that their is anything humorous about ADHD, I am simply laughing at the fact that I am so certain I have it, without first asking a doctor) because apparently a lot of steps in different directions (i'm doing the cha cha slide over here) have to be done in order to figure out if in fact I do have it, and then an alternative route will have to be taken in furthering my studies in psychic abilities. 

Point of all this blabber is that I want people reading this to take a few moments every day to really think about how much they truly are in control of their life. Everything that told you, you couldn't is noise. Put in earplugs, you got this!