..."Money Can't Buy Happiness"..
Well these people obviously have never had to deal with bills.
Have never had to wonder if they'd make enough to pay the car note.
Have never had to stay awake all night wondering if they'd be able to afford to buy groceries.
Have never had to think to themselves, "I am never going to be able to find my dream and go after it, because I literally have NO MONEY to keep me going while I try to 'find myself'"
I am at a stand still.
Life seems to be getting worse and worse.
I try to think of the positives but that's really hard when you're barely keeping your head above water.
I recently got a kitten, well in June, and he is the cutest thing in the world, and I feel like I don't spend any time with him, because even when I am here, am I really?
The answer is no.
I am just aimlessly wandering through life.
I wish I had time to sit and to write the novel I always wanted to write but my mind is a complete and utter blank, taken over wholey by stress.
It keeps me up at night, makes me feel sick to my stomach, makes me feel nauseous, dizzy, and I can't afford to go see my therapist because did I mention I have no money?
It is a never ending battle with no light at the end.
I have no college degree because I felt so lost I didn't know what I wanted to do, and I was never very good at blindly going through life, so I took off semester after semester, hoping I'd find something in myself, hoping I'd find an answer, but obviously I'm still asking the question, and I'm still EXACTLY where I started.
I would apologize for this being a rant, but that is pointless to do because this post was intended to be a rant, it is intended to help whomever is struggling with the same thing.
Lara, how are you helping if you're literally saying you can't help yourself?
Good Question.
I'm helping in that I am telling you, no one is alone.
We can share in this crappy thing called life, together.
Here's hoping everyone is having a better day than say I.
